Habit, good servant or bad master? its in yours.

Lately this habit getting worst and worst.
Wala akong nagagawang mabuti.
All day was turn to nothing
di ko naasikaso sarili ko.
yung promise kong pag aaral wala
instead na asikasuhin ko yung self improvement ko..
walang nang yayari kasi mas nakokontrol ako nang kagustuhan kong leche
i must stop it now..

walang mangyayari sa buhay ko kung ipapatuloy ko pa to..
time is gold, hindi ko mababalik ang oras na nasayang..
tsaka isa pa, tumatanda na ko and worst yung mga bata mas magaling sakin, napag iiwanan ako.
i must do something. Need kong lumaban, di ko hahayaang maliitin nila ako. So what if ayaw nila sakin as long na wala akong ginagawang masama i have nothing to worry. That's all maybe i'm not that charming in there eyes, but doesnt mean na mag mumok nalang akong parang bata. I will fight sawa na ko sa kanila. Whatever it is, kung sila lang din mawawala di ko pang hihinayang, at first ako lang naman ang nag pupumilit na makisama e, e kung ayaw wala akong magagawa na dun..

i believe im worthy. i will fight for my rights. hindi ko sila hahayaang manalo bibigyan ko sila nang magandang

As the bible say.
I did not give you the spirit of fear.

so any fear on me i will despise it.

^_____^

Let Junk be a Junk

My day in office is the same usual routine, no one notice me except charles, he's been good. I know it was just a plain friend concern. Im tired of being nobody i mean no importance at all, they see me as nothing, if i ask then will reply and i ask then again i knew they slightly treat me as a bothersome..

Hurt me most when our supervisor care more to chat with charles hows the status of his courtship to our officemate while im being pending for her reply 'saying wait lang ha!'. She's more eager to talk non work stuff and make chikka. I cant blame it, she's adore more charles more than i, whose adore me anyaway.

I feeling more more ugly everytime im on the office, being the invisible to others, maybe if im cute or something pleasant they will be more willing to help me, all this time, i can see myself alone, doing things alone, yes they answer if i ask, but it really different if ann ask them they are more welcome..

I dont grudge ann, all this time with ian, they are the one who really been helpful to me. But i cant help it, to feel the pain, why there not appreciating me.

I didnt do harm to them, if there's anything i can do for them i will surely will.

But for God sake, i feel alone..

I hate this feeling of less importance..

Oh God help me..

Worst of all! im not a tomboy im really not! NOT NOT!! dont judge me please i'm a girl. If you see me that i can do nothing, i will not take time to explain myself to them, and i will not afraid of what they think of me, this is me, if they dont like me. Its theres choice and i will respect them.


What im really after now, this day, is not to please them... they are junk.. JUNK.. i will go to please my God nothing more else..

My God if no ones appreciate my atleast i will have you.. that's what importance to be with you, i cant find happiness in the people surely on You i will. Heal me father heal my wounds. I need you so much you are the only one I needed. You are the only One my God, help me My God help me God.. I need you...

Time management urgently needed to master!

I set the things i want to do..
but in the end i didnt done it..
darn..
Im always into afraid of starting the task, when i know i should act now, i give myself always a break until i got no time left anymore..

I want to change it, im not a younger anymore, it this thing gone far, i know i gonna be left behind..

I should start to act now, be fearless, yeah its been so disturbing to start a task that you know your not good, but who cares if i got mistake, eventually im going to master it anyway..

That's it theres nothing to afraid of.. everyone sucks when it their first time..

"do not let the punches of life knock you out in the match" excerpt from romancing your soul by regina..

it really struck on me.i've been in depression for a couple of months, not be able to find a job for a long period after i graduated, then finally i got one, but there's a problem on my medical. there's a part from me, im blaming myself in my situation, my irresponsibility drag me to these situation and eventually letting myself to close my heart in response to on those negative thoughts brought to me by my unfortunate experience.

in realization those "bad" experience is inevitable but i had the possible way to lessen its effect. i keep repeating to doing mistake, ive never learned my lesson, my immaturity always knocking on myself.Thats the real reason why i stumble, I DO NOT LEARNED.

i know from the fact that i've been going late, but still i keep myself sleeping late!

thats it... i need to cut off those bad habbits that impersonating us pleasure.


MOST OF ALL be Responsible, always make advance move and plan! stop of play..

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I personally pity and admire him, for having to sacrifice his happiness in choosing to serve the country and leaving for a moment Savannah.But his decision will be a begenning of a change on his life.A change that will bring sorrow as he lead a life full of sacrifices for the one he love.


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i decided to have blog to improve my english skill. eversince it has been my weakness, so now! i decided to overcome it.. anyone who will read this, and find error on my grammar, i highly appreciate your criticism and comment...

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